At nineteen years old, Nicole C. Kear's biggest concern was choosing a major--until she walked into a doctor's office in midtown Manhattan and got a life-changing diagnosis. She was going blind, courtesy of an eye disease called retinitis pigmentosa, and has only a decade or so before it happens. Kear decides to carpe diem (seize the day) and make the most of the vision she has left. She joins circus school, tears through boyfriends, travels the world, and keeps her vision loss a secret. When Kear becomes a mother, just a few years shy of her vision's expiration date, she amends her strategy, giving up recklessness in order to relish every moment with her kids. Her secret, though, is harder to surrender - and as her vision deteriorates one thing becomes clear: no matter how hard she fights, she won't win the battle against blindness. But if she comes clean with her secret, and comes to terms with the loss, she can still win her happy ending.